I've never been to me - charlene
这是电影《沙漠妖姬》经典歌曲,一首非常好听而不太好找但又非常有名的歌,这是首充满女性自觉的抒情歌曲,回顾了自己荒诞不经的人生,其叙述方式颇为特别,因为歌中倾诉的对象正是心里的另一个自己。
I've never been to me
歌手:charlene
Hey lady, you, lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a rich inventivewife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'llnever do
But I wish someone had talked to me
like I wanna talk to you
I've been to Georgia and California,
anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacherman
and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces
Because I had to be free
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me
Please lady, please, lady, don't just walk away
Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart
that has lived a million lies
I've been to Nice and the isle of Greece
While I sipped champagne on a yacht
I moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo
and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings
And I've seen some things
that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me
(spoken)
Hey, you know what paradise is? It's a lie.
A fantasy we create
about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding,
And it's that man you fought with this morning,
the same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love
Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children
that might have made me complete
But I, I took the sweet life
And never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I spent my life exploring the subtle whoring
that cost too much to be free
Hey lady, I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me
嗨!女士,诅咒著自己一生的女士
你是个不满现状的母亲,也是个有创意的妻子
对你所梦想的事,我并不怀疑
但我希望能有人来找我谈心
像我找你谈心一样
我曾到过乔治亚州和加州
和任何我想去的地方
牵著传教士的手
在阳光下做爱
我走遍各地,看尽友善的脸孔
只因我想要自由
我曾到过天堂,但从来不曾属於自己
求求你,女士,别走开
因为我必须告诉你,为何我现在孓然一身
在你眼里可以看到许多的我
何不让我分担你那脆弱的心
虽然你活在千万个谎言中
我到过尼斯,到过希腊群岛
驾著装满香槟的游艇
在蒙地卡罗四处游荡
展示我的斩获
我曾在国王面前宽衣解带
也曾看过一些女人不该看到的事物
我曾到过天堂
但从来不曾属於自己
嘿,你晓得什么是天堂吗?那是个谎言
那是我们对人、事、地的憧憬
所编造出来的幻想
你知道什么是真理吗?
那是你怀中抱著的婴儿
那是今天早上和你共同奋斗,
晚上一同做爱的男人
那就是真理,那就是爱
有时候我会为未出世的孩子哭泣
也许那会使我的生命更完整
但我选择了优渥的生活
从此不再明白痛苦是什么
我已花了一生去探索
为自由付出太多代价
女士,我曾到过天堂
但从不曾属於自己......

I''ve Never Been to Me(未曾有自我)是一首充满女性自觉的抒情歌曲。歌曲的叙述方式十分特别:描述一个历经沧桑的女人,见到一个因不满自己目下的生活、准备去追寻“自由”的怨妇,忍不住真挚地提出忠告“我自己也曾经有过放荡形骸的生活,甚至为追寻所谓的自由走遍了世界;而且凭借年轻和美貌,曾得到过别的女人做梦都不敢想的快乐时光;但是到头来却是一场空,等到年纪大了,发现自己追求的不过是镜花水月,甚至从未有过真正的自我”。虽然歌中唱的是劝告别人,但听起来却像是在规劝另一个自己,一个几十年前的自己。她规劝那位彷徨的妇女,“要好好珍惜自己的拥有,珍惜自己怀抱中的孩子,以及那经常拌嘴却是真心爱自己的丈夫”。她说自己虽然到过所谓的快乐“天堂”,却从来没未找到过自我,希望别人不要再重蹈她的覆辙。
这首歌早在1977即由美国女歌手 Charlene 灌唱,其后也曾经数次重录,或许是发行公司财力不够。宣传无门,问世没有多久就销声匿迹。终于本歌在1982年被一位电台DJ发掘,在自己的节目中密集的播放,从而老曲新红,一年后拿下全美排行榜第三和英国第一的好成绩。但是 Charlene 本人的星途却远非一帆风顺,另外唱了一些歌都反响平平,1980年代中期就彻底消失歌坛了。不过这首I''ve Never Been to Me(未曾有自我)却一直传唱至今,成了夏琳唯一的一首畅销曲。
台湾艺人黄莺莺早在歌曲在美国走红前慧眼识珠,发现并翻唱了这首曲子;SHE也翻唱了本曲。但只有Charlene才把这首歌中年沧桑的感觉演绎得这样深刻。
